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29 November 2009

words to me, to you all

To tell of feelings inside that the senses cannot touch

Lonely can be in the teardrops on a bereaved person’s cheek

Lonely can be in the silence of sorrows too deep to speak

Lonely can haunt a deserted room that Laughter once made proud

Lonely surrounds you when you’re alone or finds you in a crowd

Lonely is heard in echoed footsteps of a departing friend

Lonely penetrates the solitude of nights that will not end

Lonely will not listen to the pleadings of a broken heart

Lonely stays and torments until new love shatters it apart

no am not lonely..neither increasing a blog post . but just penned this poem . semesters are ahead,pressure, yet i want silence.
silence to be lonely , to lookback ...

"look back"??? when ??

--hmm....26/11

--are you sure??? what the hell you are writing !!! are you patriotic or in a romantic mood!!!

--no ..... you dont understand , i cant share .. i want to write like bastab,sayani, anirban, aritra da ,sourav da but i cant. i dont know what to write but i want to say i lot of things.lots..

--crazy you are!!! okke tell me what do you wanna say

-- do u think d madnees,sadness are really neccessary?

--WTH!!!! u r just a self centred person .dont you know how they [WE] have sufferd???

-- i know... i watched it .. my aunt and uncle were inside TRIDENT at that time. still i say its a show off

--LOL why show off!!!!??!@#$ cant people show there due respects to them ???

--yes ,"due respect"?? ohh ..hmmm... then were is media , web advertisement, twitter shirts.... for KALAHANDI, AMLASHOL????

- obviously there is NGO,POLITICIANS for them .. why are you so bothered dear... do your own work... and please dont talk like a stupid,GAWD!!!! u R JUST A WASTE OF TIME

- may be. okkay i got it NGO ,POLITICIANS are for them... then why cant we give tthem just a square meals of rice.?

- WHAT!!! ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT POVERTY???

- yes i remember 1 story of MAHASHWETA DEVI [ the famous bengali writter].

once she went to KALAHANDI . she was welcomed by a poor people. [whom you call the dirty one,illiterate ] . they offered her just a bowl of RICE . MAHASHWETA DEVI is waiting for other dishes like "TORKARI", "DAL"...then a member of the family said

"khuda liye bhat koti kheye le maa , dekbi sob khaoa hoye gese"

[meaning: eat the RICE,with your hunger, every thing is tasty when u hav no meals for 3 days except water]

- heyy hang on !! i got a tweet

FEW MINUTES LATER

- yes m back . hmm so what you wre saying ... oh yes. but what is to do with 26/11

- i told you , i cant write but i want to say that is

IF WE CAN SPEND SO MUCH OF PEACE ADVERTISEMENT, FASHION SHOWS , 26/11 CONDOLENCE THEN WHAT HAPPENS IF WE JUST GIVE A SQUARE MEAL OF RICE FOR THOSE WHO DIED JUST BECAUSE WITHOUT FOOD,MALNUTRITION??? WHY DO WE JUST JUMP WHEN WE HEAR A STAR SAYING "OHH I LOVE KOLKATA , I LOVE ROSSOGOLLA,PLEASE WATCH MY FILM"BUT NOT AT FOR THOSE AMLASHOL AND KALAHANDI PEOPLE , WHO DIES , BUT NEVER SHOUT FOR A MEAL?????ARE WE REALLY CONCERNED? PATRIOTIC? MANY JAWANS HAVE LOST THEIRS LIFE. ITS TRUE... BUT THEY HAVE BEEN GIVEN BACK UP .... THEIR'S FAMILY IS NOT STARVING FOR DAY AFTER DAY, NOT DYING.WE NEED BOTH THE JAWANS, AND THE POOR, . POOR PEOPLE ARE HUMAN BEING .. THEY ARE JUST NOT OUR MAID SERVANT OR A "PET LABOUR".YOU MAY SAY THAT THATS GOVERNMENT,NGO 'S WORK.... THEN WHY THEY ARE DYING???? WHY?????? DO YOU KNOW THAT WE GET OUR FOOD FROM THIS PEOPLE, AND THEY DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO EAT .ARENOT WE A SOCIAL CRIMINAL?? ARE NOT WE KILLING THEM??WE CAN EXCHANGE A LOT ON MONEY IN BUYING GADGETS, WEBSITE , MOBILE PHONES etc... WHAT IF.......

"NILISHA...............Take a bath and stop talking on your own come on...be fast , ..."
-coming mom.....am coming .are you??

23 November 2009

now you may ask me what is
nilabho khosra
the answer is "blue diary".... ..
Why blue??why not red?? why not green,black....
blue heals me. blue engulfs me. it calm down, let me speak; let my diary speak..allows me to think wide, wandering over my random thoughts.
she can personifies herself as the vast ocean, or a vast sky......
or even a blue eye who gazes at u .. like eager to know,eager to speak.... and once again she personifies my diary....
thats why... the blue diary,
"NLABHO KHOSRA"

14 October 2009

a brief note.....

well , there is nothing much to say about Rajasthan... "the place of the kings " but one thing i must mention that it is not exclusively a "land of sands". Its amazing to hear that to the extreme southern part of this state is the hill station, mt abu; which is engulfed by a tropical forest[name not known to me].
the 4 things that has enriched the yellow land are temples,forts , the hill station[artisan lake] and of course the Thar Desert.
however, our tour was not a preplanned one...but just an hour decision .
my Dad, presently a professor in MITS (Mody Institute of Technology and Sciences) is now staying in the campus area in his cottage.
well we(me, dad and, mom) and the family of vice chancellor (uncle and runa aunti)of MITS
decided to travel a part of Rajasthan . I have marked the route we traveled . the circled places are the tourist spots were we hav enjoyed.
MITS is in the SIKAR districtrict of Rajasthan inside the city LAXMANGARH

before the tour we went some near places like shakambari,laxmangarh fort etc

but the main tour consists of UDAIPUR,CHITTAURGARH and MT.ABU

will describe on the later posts both about inside and outside of SIKAR district

here comes the map of our tour>>>>

The route we tr

16 August 2009

birbhum to kolkata photographical tour

posted some f d pics cldnt post all.... chek out d post

the snaps wre taken 4m a moving car while coming back from birbhum to calcutta

pictorial tour 6

pictorial tour 5

pictorial tour 3

pictorial tour 2

pictorial tour birbhum>>> kolkata

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a pictorial tour....birbhum>>kolkata

check out the tour in this post from my car .......

15 August 2009

its dawn

the last pic m heading dis way on my car

2nd pic--- found a man so early in the morning

topmost pic----- they are d santhals.... its santhal para

preparation to logaon[rural birbhum]

lol i hav never been a blogger freak ........... yesterday night i was not a good health
now am out wid my handycam for snapshots f d rural birbhum ...
click click clik :) :D

and the craziest thing is i have not yet said it to my mamarbari-people

:P jst said it to my lil sis chellie

wake up...goodmorning kolkata

bdw kings am running out f balance and no 89
i hav negtv balance

will trry to b onli9 lets c

14 August 2009

the journey 1: destination birbhum

just took the camera , laptop , charger , and d datacable
almost on the way to home
adventorous isn't it?????????

yeahh . no ph calls, sms alone
but yes loving the solitude
the driver seems to be tired its a long journey ....
catching the durgapur express highway

but feeling like that the world is so small

am enjoying yet am missing my friend..kings :)
i must hav wid him yet i cant
poor boy :(
dont be upset dear .. kp reading my blogs and orkut updates you wil get to hear me

well the road is so smooth .. u wil be bored after a few minutes
playing the anoushka shankar ragas

heyyy wait write now i snapped sme pic from my handycam
uploading it
wait
hold on....

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
here it goes
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ohhh got d battery f my laptop is blinking
have to shut down lets c if i get the current on my mamarbari
u knw wat??? this is the first time am travelling alone in the car its exciting
lol

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tommorow i will try to go to some remote areas in birbhum
lets c
if i am able to show you some hidden facts or not

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bbye

13 August 2009

ode to love.........................

Subaha subaha ka khyaal aaj
Wapas gokul chal mathura raaj
Mathura nagarpati kaahe tum gokul jaaon?
Manohar vesh chhod nand raaj
Sar se utaarke sundar taaj
Raj dand chhod bhumi par vaaj
Phir kaahe baansuri bajaao?
Mathura nagarpati kaahe tum gokul jaao
Kaun sa anokha geet gaye pee kakool
Raj paat jaise aaj bhai dhool?
Kaun sa anokha geet gaaye pee kakool
Birhan laage phir hridaya akool
Raj kaaj man na lagaao
Mathura nagarpati kkahe tum Gokul jaao?
Poor naari saari vyakul nayan
Kusum sajaa lage kantak shayan
Poor naari saari vyakul nayan
Raat bhar madhav jaagat bechain
Kaahe aadhi raat saarathi bulaayo?
Dheere dheere pahunchat jamuna ke teer
Sunsaan panghat mridul sameer
Dheere dheere pahunchat jamuna ke teer
Khan khan madhav birha madeer
Use kaahe bhool na paao
Tumhari piriya ab puri gharvaali
Doodh navan ghivoo din bhar khaali
Biraha ke aansoon kab ke, ho kab ke ponch daali
Phir kaahe dard jagaao?
Mathura nagarpati kaahe tum gokul jao??

12 August 2009

INTERESTING PEOPLE .. TOWA, RITH ,SAYAN

pithwish , samhita , sayan and me ... the four of us formed the MICROSOFT IMAGINE CUP 2008, EGYPT .... but dont know who is the main culprit that the team reaced round 2, i,e top 30 amongst the world :)

pithwish .. loved me because he thinks m unique, he thinks am pampering myself because i like computer . the only word he used to say " why are you like wrapped in a polythin?"

our relation did not work out .... cause to me love is not saying that " i miss yoy , i love you , hold me like you never let me go.............." we broke up

towa aka samhita , my family friend , tried to patch up she used to like prithwish [ who rejected her because c is 4m a mediocre family]
but ... i cant love a guy who is nagging , emotional fool , blackmailing all the time

i left ....

sayan ... i selscted this guy for my team . at first i found him enthusiastic for the team work

but later no sign of him

and ultimately this work carried out by me and towa
i wonder its a male dominating society but still why cant guys think a bit ?? innovate????

i remember i asked prithish to find a team name
he gave the names>>>" what's in a name, 3 musketeers.."

i asked sayan to write the script . he said " hmmm.." but he didnot

but missing IMAGINE CUP
want to participate again

but who will be the team members ??? except me and towa???

rather who is d right one????............no one myself

INTERESTING PEOPLE - FUSE

now comes... the great fuse aka suman mukherjee. well dont hav to tell much about dis guy

but a brief
he is an NTPC trainee and the day he got the training he got the job .
and after that he is the busiest person in orkut... reason???
dunno may be the NTPC has given him the job to chat wid girls only , change your profile image every hour, make the girls post comments on photo album in orkut and get the permanent post of "THE ORKUT GUY"
and blah , blah , blah

but what could be his salary????
well am sure girls [ his so called crush] will know it by his frequent dialogue " come to online , i hav no balance "

he is still ding this job
and he wants to do 'this' job abroad i.e saudi arabia

he is just a diploma holder
:P

i think the recession period is over
do you????
:D :D :P

INTERESTING PEOPLE - AVIJIT SARKAR

now comes the most and the craziest hallucinating people avijit sarkar aka guddu

well like anirban i met this guy from the social networking site 'orkut'

our chat was somewhat like this...
-DAY1-
guddu: hi am avijit, i love to make frndship
me: hi
guddu : the day i saw you in orkut i think you are the one
me:ohh
...guddu went offline....

-DAY 2-
guddu: y dont u trust me .. you know what ...
me: huh???
guddu : forget about your friends
me [ god lemme block him]

after 1 yr guddu opend a new gtalk id and
guddu: heyy how come you be online?
me: you only sent me the chat request
guddu : me ?!! ohh . hmm .. how is going on ?
me: nice

again he went on the 'block' mode :P
:D :D :D

INTERESTING PEOPLE - ANIRBAN SAHA

he claims himself a workaholic guy. can work for 3 days at a stage ... he thinks he is a full of innovative ideas and he is the best
well, yes he is.
but he is not the best
he has a lot of innovations , they r always the best as he claims without any one else judgments. he like to work in a team only if he is the boss , if he is the boss of everything , where the team members are just dumb listeners
he writes blog ...unlike me [every hour] but only about himself. he likes everything which deals with publishing or showing off his nature

i remember a quote " you cant hide the truth"

then i ask him y such imposing a tag like ' i am the best, i am the allrounder'?
lol
i closed d chapter
he postponed many projects like film making and all because he is not ' d boss'

ahh you want the proof???
lol

these characters are not fictitious but will be fictious in my next script
-what you said? "these?"
- yeah you are right many people have made my life an interesting hell :P
will soon interlink them ... these are just brief intro about their personality

INTERESTING PEOPLE ..prologue

people i met till now few hav imposed an image upon me.. few not ...
they must not be aware that how we, the world observe and conclude about there character.
they are anirban saha , avijit sarkar, suman mukherjee [aka fuse ], prithwish tarafder, samhita sanyal , sayan chatterjee......yet to be added check out the later posts under this site

05 August 2009

a mixed outbrust

it was a strange experiences. last post i mentioned about kinshuk .. it was nice to talk to him a sharp minded guy but not 4 those so called "love/romantic" blues.
i was feeling bored so i sms-ed him. he replied
we have some funny conversation .
yesterday night we decided to meet on swabhumi.

suddenly he demanded to meet me .. or else he would stay there 4 all the night.he was near to my house.
i first avoided coz we r meeting 2morrow
.finally we met... and i was a bit angry on him coz it was ridiculous

he insisted me to going fr a chat . bt i cant give a guy so much allowances
so i refused
and started walking straight away.. he started followng me bugging me , bt it ws my para

i was offended as i trusted dis guy as a frnd bt.....
he was sorry 4 tat

i dnt knw how and when to put a border line...
i also felt happy coz i like crazy things
may be i dnt hav d guts always
may be its my fault

but still ..............

dunno
am confused

i think i havnot wished for this type of craziness which is forced .
lol
bye

jst now there was a weird expeience
i talkd abt kinshuk

proud ,killer ,protective

no not 3 candles they all are same
characterized and personified by exposure and angle

similar to our daily life...at home we are one person , when we r outside we are with a different personality

then??? who are we??? who personifies us??? who names the different mirror image of our character???
is it god or we the people????

think reader u think!!!!

the topmost pic characters as " i am the one , i will not listen to any one " i.e, an attitude
the second pic characters the "killer,harmful " personality
the third pic charactes" yes i listen to you ", i.e a caring personality.

but they all are same!!!

are we premonitated always??? or our thinking is restricted ???
what if i say that those are not candles. but they are three friends...
whose names are proud,killer and protective?????

consequently they are the part of our life ...and they are always with us :)

think world think

the numb and the dumb

who am i?
some one calls me choco
some one nisha
am that "somebody's me"???
no ,its not a copy paste thought
but we are personified so often
a friend from orkut ate up my head ..bcoz y d hell m so bsy in work bt not in love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today morning i gave a 'jhar' to amlan for being a bit intimating
y d hell ppl are so caring????
do they want to take away my parents position ??
or its showing a chivalry ???
y for that ?? to get a praise worthy word??!!!

amlan asked me to pardon him and so i am
but thats more a mistake i know i did

the mistake is never allow any body so much
what u may say people will take "faida" of it???

y ppl are so concerned unnecessarily?

its my life not theirs
i want to live my life on my own
but......

and the interesting thing is that they know it ......
god !!!!

realize who is the numb and who is the dumb

back to home....
yesterday i didn't sleep
i was talking to kinshuk n gtak wid one f my frnds frm orkut

thats the craziest thing i did again :P
though superlative adjectives does not repeat but in my case it repeats :D
lolz

i generally dont like talking to persons but yes that i dunno wt happend , may b bcoz of a lazy state f mind i talked frm 3am in the morning till 6am
i hav to disconnect coz my mobile battery was low

thn i watchd serials wid tuli on d net those were "bangladeshi natok "
pakd up ...my mom cald me . i disappointed her to give a surprise saying that " i'm not coming "

and then home atlast :)

04 August 2009

well nothing but a really stupid i being for this days
busy schedules....
yesterday i got aircel connectivty

funny experiences

well nothing but a really stupid i was being for this days
busy schedules....
yesterday i got aircel connectivty
i surf d net till 2am in ni8, changed d sim and in d morning i tried wid hutch sim and aircel connection ...got screwed up ... i didnt evn know that i'm using hutch sim called to the custom care... suddenly found that the line was cut and so the balance...then i realized yhat i havnt changed the hutch sim to aircel

this was one stupidity
>>>>
well now you cant say its my stupidity but Govt's stupidity :P
LOL
i went to chandni yesterday to buy a metro frm tollygaunge by metro
while coming back @ mess [garia stn]found no auto,taxi,bus nothing
me and my friend amlan hired a rickshaw from tollygaunge to garia stn
the puller took me 100 bucks :P :D

>>>>> another event hope dis will make u laugh
me , my room mate tuli and swapna are now the 3 living creatures in the mess, asha the another roomie havenot come yet , so a gloomy atmosphere.
we took our dinner a bit early around 10 pm and went to bed. suddently swapna knocked the room
and we all woke up , feeling somewhat frustrated, tuli found out d remedy
c suddenly played "dhan ta nan" from the movie "kaminey"

and we all wearng a bermuda and of course a top and a steel plate on a hand started to dance
upon the bed
dnt knw y
...:P
well that was crazy but yes a fun

heyy my frnd suvajit from orkut just now ping me as he wants to go to bathroom ...
u can avoid evrything but not nature calls
ahem ahem :P :D

so bye ..

30 July 2009

the unheard tunes

do you ever cry after hearing a song even if you don't understand the language of the lyrics? or do you ever think that a tune is very sad?
why?
why do u think that a violin has a sad sound but not a bass guitar?
what tune you are ?
it is the page where you will get my lyrics,also the reason.
you will know the cry behind the words which makes us cry

the mundane life

its nothing but my mundane blues,secrecy , people,hue and cries of city life.my daily notes,daily feelings ...a newborn diary.

when a picture speaks

its nothing but an interpretation , not a lecture on a grammar on photography , but an unheard tunes that strikes into my mind when i saw a color or any picture.
for suppose, black white, yellow they all speaks but do you hear theirs inner cry?

dreams

do u dream?
"yes"
"no"
"sometimes"
may be sound rubbish . what is to analyze in a dream? well , nothing but i find this 5 square inch subconcious mind a little terrific ,rather mystery let see folks ...what you can interpret . rather whats my interpretation

the first page....

Don't know what a first page should be , people says why blog !!! why not a diary? but to me diary is there , the foundation of all thoughts ....but no one will bother to open. i cant shout, people will think that i have mad ,and so a blog. cant share my random thoughts...so a blog. if i cry upon a diary ..my words will be blurred.but not in a blog......

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